Letting it All Hang Out

I notice first that my belly is tight and then I become aware that my breath is up in my throat and no sooner does that sensation come into my awareness when I realize that my shoulders are tense and then I realize that my upper back is also tense.  I wonder how all this tension could be present in my body and I don't even notice.  I wonder what I am so occupied with, what I am paying attention to so as to not notice what state my body is in.  What is it that my body already senses, what is it that it knows about my environment that I have yet to notice.  What is it that I don't want to know and what does it cost me not to know!  And in that thought I relax my belly, drop my attention to the base of my spine and everything changes.  So simple and yet such massive change and in a heart beat.  I laugh out loud to myself....who cares if my belly hangs out!  Who even notices?  And if they do so what!  Tonight all that happened in my car as I drove through woods and was grateful for the new moose fencing that keeps those massive animals off the road and away from my car.  I love time in my car.... driving...in the confines of the car I create my own world and I drive down a mostly empty road tonight.  I breathe and let go.  I don't worry about answers and know it will all unfold as it should and what ever it is I know I am safe moment to moment to moment.  I think about what is present in my world and wonder how conscious I was when I manifested all that and I refocus on what I clearly want what i dream about creating.  I have been alone and in that aloneness lost touch with community that shares a passion and commitment to evolution.  In that aloneness I have struggled.  I commit to mySelf to my evolution and in that commitment I reach out and I am so much more!  i breathe and i let it all hang out....and with elegance of course!